While everyone wants to have favor, not everyone will. You must understand the power of being chosen. It is such a serious assignment that we sometimes spend more time worrying if we will be able to fulfill our purpose than actually acting to complete it.
You are not alone. Many of us do it. We have been given this mission but we are more concerned with why was it given to us? Who else got it? Are they doing better with theirs? What are they doing with it? Why does it matter? What are you doing with yours?
I can write about it because I know about it. Because occasionally from time to time, I still have to catch myself. There is a list of things I would like to do and say but often times, I remember I am just a girl from Mississippi who has not seen much of the world, and I question myself. I plant the first seed of doubt and the weeds grow from there.
I had to realize my value, that I am here for a purpose, so even when I am afraid to speak, it is my duty. It is why I am here. Sometimes I have to literally jump into that thought and act fast, because overthinking can kill all confidence. Many times, when that happens, I find someone who was often just waiting for someone else to make a move, so they could follow. Why, because I was born to be a leader. You must know who you are in order to complete your mission.
-From Fancy w/ Love