Peace be unto you all,
I know it has been a while, but I could not write to inspire others when I was uninspired as well. I could not motivate anyone to do anything, when I was sitting depressed and stagnant myself. Anyone who works in the arts has to have some type of life outside of their work. It is where they get their inspiration, but I was at a place, where all I wanted to do was lay in the bed everyday all day. I did enjoy watching Criminal Minds and CSI (it did not matter which one, I love them all). Obviously I was in a dark place, and though that is not new to me, this time I was in much deeper.
Relocating had never crossed my mind, but when it did, it was just like- Boom! You have to go. The time is now. Most did not believe I was leaving. I did not believe I was leaving. I was packing but a big part of me did not think I was going anywhere. In the beginning, I told people I was coming in secret, but I guess they did not believe me anymore than I did. I reminded my mama as she was preparing to leave for work the night before I left, and she was like,”Wait, are you really leaving?” She had not even believed me.
However, it seemed as if just by telling people that I was coming, that things began to fall into place. I began to attract more people from the city. I attracted other people who were new to the city. I attracted people who I would work with once arriving. I attracted a venue to host my first event before even making here, so I was hosting a networking event within my first three days.
I have met many who have been welcoming and willing to assist, yet everyday has not been a walk in the park. Everything has not been handed to me. Yes, I have met quite a few people who have said in so many words, I am not big enough to work with, to bother with giving me some of their time. I can only respect that because you have to take the good with the bad. It makes one appreciate it more and I have already discovered some of those were not missed opportunities, but rather blessings in disguise. Nevertheless, the point I am trying to make is, had I never made the decision, none of this would have happened. Yes, I had to sike myself out, but I did it, and I’m here… and I am inspired once again. Until next time….
From Fancy w/ Love